I AM NOT READY.

My hands are shaking.
My heart is thudding.
I'm in emotional void.
Bundle! My little bundle of joy.
My heart is not ready to let go.
My hand is not ready to pour the soil.
My conscious is not ready to plant a rose.
Baby! Oh! Blessings from the Heavens.
Did you have to go?
I'm not ready to see you lay lifeless.
             To see you get pushed.
             To see you! Ah! My little Angel.
             To see you in that box.
             To see you get covered by earth.
Dust to dust, but not you my lovely noise maker.
True form to true form but I'm full of formless pain.
I pray to awake and see you off.
But promise to be there and wipe my tears.

SLEEP TIGHT DEAR.❤️

The house is dark, Your bed is dull.

The sun has no light, it's full of cold. 

My heart hurts, my eyes hurt. 

Baby;My little Godly Angel!

Give me strength to heal. 

Lend me the will to live. Oh Maker!

Do angels hold you tightly 

and swing you, side by side?

Do angels swing to watch smile in your sleep. 

Do the angels turn on the heater 

And wash you in the ambiance of a warm bath. 

Do they?

Do you see Gabriel the angel?

Does he say when he's appearing to me?

Your sister cries and feeds her tears. 

The cot is too big for her to lay. 

The night is boring without your double sirens. 

Time will heal, yes, but won't change how she feels.

I, know you are in a Happy place. 

At God's warm embrace, 

At Jesus' loving care. 

When God calls me home, to swing you up there. 

With joy I will hold you in my arms. 

Sweet little Baby Elle Muthoni Karanja.
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